The Final Countdown

I`m running on empty but full of energy.

I have not eaten since April 24th - no food but I`ve been on the move all week - visiting London and Southend on a daily basis.

All I`ve had is liquid, liquid and more liquid.
The first 2 days I had Red Bull, Orange Lucozade, tea and McDonald`s Strawberry Milkshakes to line my stomach and fight off the hunger pains - then I `dropped` the shakes and added Ribena and Orange juice but from today no more luxury liquids.

It will just be sweet tea and black coffee. And it should be easy as all weekend I aint got to cook Bacon Sarnies or various pastas.

My youngest  is on a Football Tour of Eire and the big boy is staying at a girlfriends house so `fasting` should be a `walk in the park`.

And apart from the `terrible pains` in my kidneys I feel fine - to be honest it has even reduced the pain in my liver.

But it has `highlighted` my emotions.

Yesterday I saw Adam off at the airport and when he hugged me in front of everyone outside the Department Lounge - I almost went to pieces as I said "Love you have a great time" and when he replied "I will, love you Dad"

I could feel a lump in my throat.

And hours later I got a bit `upset` saying "goodbye" to Sam and he was only going to a party in Basildon LOL.

But we still gave each other a hug with Sam saying "Top man".

Both incidents brought home to me the serious implications of my `Hunger Strike` if it goes to the wire - which it will do - coz I wont give up - will I get a chance to say a final "goodbye" to Sam and Adam?

I know from the previous chapter that they will support my action because as I said I dont want them to see me `sick` or for me to become a burden on them.
They will appreciate me `going out in a blaise of publicity` with a media reported inquest and hopefully a Public Inquiry.

My `Hunger Strike` will mean that the General Public and my sons will have to know the truth as to why I was illegally & cruelly stopped from seeing my daughter.

The British public, the media and Sam and Adam will want to know why a "innocent man" was hounded to death by his ex-wife, a judge and Social Services.
I can sort of `happily" go to my grave as long my children NEVER forgive and NEVER forget that I was MURDERED by JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...the former porn star...and girlfriend of perverted pimp richard grimson.


As the MP told my sons "They all want your dad dead".

Solicitor Alan Foskett has already gone-on-record telling The Times newspaper:
"This case is the worst I have come across in 30 years and for the first time in my life I am ashamed to be part of the Legal system"
Adding;
"Mr Johnson was shafted"
And his view of the same judge hearing the Care Proceedings and my Divorce:

"I certainly think it was poor practise in terms of applying the old adage `justice should not only be done but seem to be done` and unwise"

"Hear Hear" to that.

And when I reported this matter to the OJC they dismissed my complaint - not because I had no reasons to complain - but because I had no documents to prove my claim that the same judge had heard both the Care Proceedings and my Divorce.

They were of the opinion that cases are handed out to who-ever is available and that its basically the "luck of the draw" - but I was right and they were wrong - as I have now obtained a legal document that proves 100% that it was not a case of `who was free on the day`.

I have a timed and  dated document (15th April 2008) which reveals that the solicitors acting for my ex-wife personally asked for the same judge to hear my Divorce.

And they made the request ex-parte.

A copy of the document was this week sent to the OJC and my MP.

As has a copy of a legal medical document I obtained under the Freedom Of Information Act from January 2006 which states "Mr Johnson has no mental health problems and is not mentally ill".

It is signed by a Essex Social Services Manager.

I want an inquiry into why this document was kept from me until May 2010.

And also an investigation into why a civil case I brought (on both police and legal advice) against my ex-wife for making "false allegations" and harrassment has been transferred from my local court to Chelmsford.

I started proceedings at Basildon in December 2010 and still dont have a date for the Hearing.

This information has also been forwarded to the OJC and my MP.

Martydom

This really will be the Final Chapter when the updated version of my autobiography `The Punk Poet` is published.

Private Draft Version:

Martydom. I can almost taste it. Last Thursday I went to court and was once again the `innocent victim` of `corruption`.
As always I was `persecuted` by a pincer movement involving my ex-wife, Social Services and the judge.
They once again lied and lied, conspired to stop me seeing my daughter. I was wrongly accused of contempt as all reporting restrictions related to my case were lifted by Lord Justice Munby at The High Court.

And as part of their campaign to stop me seeing my daughter they falsely accused me of writing a feature in The Sun which if they`d bothered to look carried the bye-line of campaigning journalist Jane Moore.
One of the many people featured in the 2-page article was called "Harry" which unbeknown to me is apparently my alias!
There was of course no hard evidence to prove I was `Harry` just the slanderous smear of jtj who provided the court with a edited clipping of the article.

It was a `kangaroo court` and like something out of `Nazi Germany` or pre-Mandella South Africa.
They want me `silenced` because I dared to expose how they all conspired to cover-up the fact that my children were violently threatened and verbally sexually abused by richard grimson.
The perverted pimp and boyfriend of my ex-wife.
They also ignored the fact that every word I have ever written or spoken aint just been the `gospel truth`.
It was also verbally repeated on oath and every word appeared in my written statement to The High Court in 2009.

I would of revealed this earlier but Friday was taken up with medical stuff, Saturday and Sunday football and yesterday organising a trip to Ireland. (all paid for by Social Services LOL).

My medical condition allows me to be a martyr. I have a illness so why wait for `nature to take its course` why not go out with a `bang` in a blaze of publicity?
From a very young age I always wanted to be famous. First a footballer, a gangster, and then a punk rock singer.
Now I can be the first `reality TV star` to die on `hunger strike`.

A week before my next court appearance I will start a `Hunger Strike` as every death in police custody/prison is always reported by the media.
They will want to know how and why I died.

There also has to be a inquest, so my death, my story, my miscarraige of justice will not be `swept under the carpet`.

This is no empty threat - because if I dont go through with it - I will lose `face` and my credibility.
My decision is now on-the-record.

In death I obviously wont be breathing but it will give me the oxygen of publicity. It might even lead to a full Public Inquiry.

The British people will want to know why a `devoted dad` has been stopped from seeing his daughter since November 2007.
A question PRINCESS will also ask when she is older.

She like the great British public will want to know why a Father who commited no crime and was accused of no crime was denied access to his daughter.

Why was a dad `persucuted and punished` for daring to speak out when his children were `violently threatened` and `verbally sexually abused` by a former pimp with a 15-year history of bullying women and children?

And why was borderline paedophile richard grimson protected by the mother and his lover julie taylor johnson?

There are many more questions for a inquest to ask.

Why were social services and my ex-wife allowed to claim I was `mad` or "mentally ill"?

And why were they allowed to get away with it?

A inquest will demand answers

The fact is the courts cant punish a dead person. They cant put a corpse in the dock.
I dont want to die - who does?

So let me explain my position.

My children know I am not well and see my physical pain on a daily basis. I have a iffy heart, dodgy liver and stomach ulcers.
They know my medical condition is the fault of their former mother, social services and the judge.

My sons know I went to prison for daring to name richard grimson, the perverted pimp and boyfriend of their ex-mum.

I told the world that this piece of `vermin` violently threatened and verbally sexually abused my children with the knowledge of social services and my ex-wife.

And for that I lost my freedom and my health.

But the fact is I know my sons will support my desicion to take my fight to the grave.

As the MP told my sons "They want your dad dead" adding "with him dead they dont have a problem".
Well he was right about them wanting me dead - but wrong about that being the end of their problem.

I will still be seeking the truth from beyond the grave. I have left legal letters, timed and dated documents that my sons will give to the media.

And before anyone accuses me of being `mentally ill` for planning a hunger strike - let me just say Ghandi, The Suffragettes and Bobby Sands.

All were hunger strikers, some lived some died - but they all fought for and in one way or another got justice.

I aint a hero - but I`m not well as three stays in Basildon Hospital with `heart problems` prove and next weeks scan will confirm.

The honest fact is I dont want to be a invalid and have to rely on my kids to look after me. I dont want to be a burden to anyone. I want to be a dead hero rather then a live coward.

I love my children to bits - but I know they feel I let them down because I didnt `do` grimson in 2005.
They have said to me "Dad you should of done him" and in a way they were right - I did let them down.

I explained the teenage me would of - as would the 25-year-old Garry Johnson. But I explained that is what your mother and her family wanted me to do - with me banged up for life they would of taken you from me.

They would of poisoned you against me and brainwashed you.
And I told them how a genuine Cockney hardman said to me "Gal, do you really want to spend 20 years locked up for a few minutes of pleasure?"

So I feel that by going on Hunger Strike I will be a true hero to my children. I want my headstone to say "Garry Johnson gave his life for his children".
What better tribute could a dad have?

I have contacted the media and a film company telling them of my decision so that everything is on-the-record.
I wanted to play for West Ham or appear on Top Of The Pops, that didnt happen, but this way I`ll get on SKY News and my name will live on forever.

I will from beyond the grave expose the corrupt Family Courts, Social Services and Cafcass and reveal how they all conspired with the help of my ex-wife to protect borderline pardophile richard grimson.
A former pimp who boasted of sex sessions with my 5-year-old daughter and ex-wife. A sick scumbag who carried out a campaign of terror against my children.

I am sure a inquest/public inquiry will want to know why the Family Court and Social Services protected such a beast.

And the timed and dated documents and legal letters my sons will hand to the media will confirm I was telling the truth and that there was a cover-up.

The police can confirm they cautioned grimson and spoke to him 3 times about his sick behaviour, the documents confirm my ex-wife covered-up for him.
And his sick behaviour is on-the-record in various `secret` Social Services and Cafcass documents.

So why was nothing done to protect my children?
I discovered from a relative of the pervert (Emma M from Ipswich) that he had a 15-year history of abusing and terrorising women and children).
That fact and everything else will come out at the Inquest. One way or another it will be in the public domain that richard grimson formerly of 40 Hyde Way Wickford and now of Wisbech did violently threaten and verbally sexually abuse my children.

And that jtj `covered-up` for him and refused to report his vile behaviour to the police.

My eldest is 19 tomorrow and youngest will be 17 in November so both will be old enough for legal Lie Detector Tests.

I am so confident that I will stick 100% to my hunger strike that in recent days I have done and spoken to my sons about `soppy sentimental` things.

Today (Thursday April 21st) it was a boiling hot day so I went to Southend and stood on the very spot where my first born walked for the first time on his own.
It was `very emotional` as was having a drink in the seafront pub where in 1989 I realised I was falling in love with my ex-wife.
And from memory she bought me a Rod Stewart Greatest Hits Video.

Next week after my scan in Billericay I plan to visit Lake Meadows where my youngest son walked for the first time - it was on the grass next to the swimming pool.
And then Pitsea Zoo where my daughter walked on her own for the first time.

I`ve also been talking to my oldest son about marriage - his not mine LOL.

I said "I cant wait for you to settle down and have kids"
Him: "Why?"
adding "What sort of dad do you think I`d make?"

I reply "brilliant" adding "Because of all you`ve been through you`ll be a great dad"

I dont say much more in case I let slip that I worry about not being around to see my grandkids - but I do give him `marraige advice` but `me being me` it aint boring or traditional.

I say "dont marry a beautiful girl, I made that mistake and look what happened? "

I tell him `beautiful women are most likely to cheat on you" . My son "What like her and grimson?"
Me:
"Exactly"
Adding "And dont forget flemming and tibbs junior"

The fact is it was others and not me who either caught her `cheating` or tipped off the boys about her adultery.

My youngest caught her kissing flemming and `half-naked` with grimson. The father of Ross Tussaud revealed to him "your mum has been seeing my brother-in-law" (peter tibbs jnr)
And it was Princess who told Sam
"I`m going to a wedding with mum and vinnie" (Hyms)

But still she tells the court and Social Services that I turned the boys against her when the truth is I only personally told the boys one thing - that being:
"You know Aiden the taxi driver he said he saw her with grimson loads of times and that the fat pervert was all over her"

Aiden is not my mate or anything so had no reason to lie, in fact his son played football with my son at Southend.
He werent out to cause trouble and added "I should of told you but it was embarrassing and didnt want to get involved"

Back to `Marraige Guidance` with Number 1 son. I add "but dont marry some bow wow with a weight problem" and he replies "as if I would".

We laugh and I tell him " a plain fatty would be faithful - but then so would a dog"

My advice:
"marry a pretty girl with a sense of humour and a good metabolism".

But I do worry because like my youngest he`s such a `handsome sod` , father like son LOL, he has my `gift of the gab` and personality but `thank god` he`s inherited jtj`s good looks.

And its because he`s so good-looking that he does attract beautiful girls - the girls he brings home are allways `stunners` so I do have genuine concerns for the future.

I just hope that both boys choose wisely and dont get hurt.

The truth is whatever girls are lucky enough to marry my boys they will have a couple of husbands who will never cheat on them.
Both boys know adultery is wrong and neither would commit such a `crime` against the mothers of their children.

My only other advice is that when you became a dad "love your kids to bits" but dont make the mistakes I did.

When I first met jtj , the truth is it was `lust at first sight` and "love at second". I was infatuated with her - but the truth is as the kids came along I put them first.

The thing is I hadnt been a dad before and I werent sure how to deal with it. It`s like before jtj I hadnt been in love or married before - but before the kids come along I could deal with it.

But as each year passed I concentrated more on being a dad then a husband - I hope that makes sense.

I have done my best to explain to my sons.

And the fact is I do think because of how they`ve been brought up and what`s happened since 2005 they will both be "great dads".

I will make sure they read the brilliant autobiography by Larry Lamb.

My other `words of wisdom` to both boys is "remember you are marrying the girl of your dreams and not her family"

I would suggest through talking to loads of people, reading books and watching TV that most marraiges suffer because of in-laws.

The truth is you shouldnt accept them as part of the marraige package. Let`s be honest if you werent marrying their son or daughter you wouldnt be `friends` with them or have anything in common with them would you?
How many people reading this book (male or female) actually like their in-laws? I bet more then half of you dont even rate your own parents.
Am I right?

I have told both boys "When you get married your wife comes first and I will move down the pecking order"

That it how it should be. I can understand and support that 100% but genuinely dont know how to advise them when it comes to being parents.

Somehow they must get the balance right of loving their kids as much as their `other halves` and not more.
I got it wrong and put my children above everything - I willingly admit I loved them more then jtj, my parents, West Ham FC, George Best, David Bowie, Speed, The Kray Twins, Cocaine, Punk Rock, Minder and all the other `luvs of my life` put together.

I have only truly loved 4 times in my life - that being the mother of my kids and my children.

I`ve liked and like 100s of people but never `loved`.

My mum and dad, I didnt choose them, as a adult I never really loved them and cant say I really had anything in common with them.
Both were in there own different ways `very selfish` and I know they never truly `loved me` but the truth is I aint bitter cos I couldnt give a monkeys. And anyone who really knows me can confirm that is the Gospel Truth.

My happiest times were when I was `apart from them` and there`s probably when they were apart from me LOL.

The "Golden Years" for me were 1989-2005 and that is from the heart and fact - better then being a schoolboy football star, teenage tearaway, punk rocker, druggie and party animal.

And I wouldnt swap those years for anything - nothing that has happened since or happens in the future can wipe away my memories and the honour of being dad to Sam, Adam and PRINCESS.

I think my kids will make great parents and make me proud - and more important make their partners and children `happy and proud`.

Is This The End?

The End or what? I honestly didnt think I`d need to write this Chapter as I honestly thought I`d said all I needed to say. Both The Punk Poet and BASILDON BABE and JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON PORN STAR AND SHOTGATE SLUT are available on mainland Europe though not in `Dear Old Blighty` as for obvious reasons I dont want them released here until after June 2011. Then earlier in the weekn I was contacted by a friend who informed me that my ex-wife was trying to get her story in the papers. I contacted the newspaper and said "My name is Garry Johnson and I hear you are planning to libel me" I then told them my true and factual story and told them "you can write what you like about me on one condition" The condition: "Before you write anything ask my ex-wife is it true that your boyfriend richard grimson violently threatened and verbally sexually abused your children?" And to add: "Is it true that he is a former pimp who boasted of sick sex sessions involving your daughter, yourself and photographs?" I said if you agree to that condition I wont demand a Right of Reply. But inform her that I am willing to handover legal documents, statements and reports that confirm she knew her perverted boyfriend was carrying out a sick and disgusting campaign of violent and sexual terror against her 3 children. The fact is my ex-wife was unaware that The Times newspaper had sent journalist Alice Fishburn to interview my family. Alice met my children and me and also read and took photo-copies of all the documents. She had 100% proof that my children had been `violently threatened` and `verbally sexually abused` by richard grimson - and with the knowledge of julie taylor johnson. Alice read documents and heard from us how taylor had admitted everything to social worker peter brown during a meeting at Ely House in Basildon.

The End

Is this The End? I honestly thought there would be no need for this Chapter, but as a famous former Prime Minister once said "events dear boy, events". All was going to plan with The Punk Poet and BASILDON BABE - THE BEST OF SHOTGATE SLUT JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON both available on mainland Europe without me having to go public in the UK as for obvious reasons I dont want either released in `Dear Old Blighty` until after July 2011. I thought I had said `all I`d needed to say` and that my story was complete but earlier in the week a friend, (GB) told me "your x is trying to get her story into a national newspaper". Taylor was unaware that a journalist from THE TIMES newspaper had visited my home and read all the documents. In fact Alice Fishburn was so impressed she took photo-copies of the evidence. Timed and dated proof confirming my children had been `violently threatened and verbally sexually abused` by julie taylor johnson`s perverted boyfriend richard grimson. Alice followed up this first meeting with me by interviewing Sam and arranging for her photographer to take pictures. So let nobody deny the 100% truth - that being my children were - with the knowledge of my ex-wife, her pondlife parents and best friend sally prevost `violently threatened and verbally sexually abused` by grimson. For-the-record prevost was not only a `nasty bit of work` who betrayed my sons by giving alibis to taylor johnson during the early stages of her affair with grimson - she was a `ungrateful cow` - as in 2004 when her own husband Simon was cheating on her with a women from Enfield - not only did I let her and son michael stay at `our house` - but as she was short of money I also lent her £500. But still she `covered-up` grimson`s perverted behaviour - she knew it was taking place because Sam told her. I understood that prevost had been taylors `best mate` since schooldays - but does that justify `protecting` a borderline paedophile? The vile behaviour of grimson is a FACT that is confirmed in various legal documents and was admitted by julie taylor johnson herself to social worker peter brown. She confessed during a face-to-face meeting with mr brown at Ely House in Basildon. A confession that was witnessed by Sam. When I heard she was trying to `gag` the press at first I laughed and then I reacted. I contacted the newspaper and said "My name is Garry Johnson and I understand you intend to libel me". After giving them my story and providing them with timed and dated evidence I said: "I have no problem with you publishing her version of events but on one condition. And if you agree to that condition I wont even demand a `right of reply`. The condition: I said as long as you start the interview by asking my ex-wife: "Is it true that your lover richard grimson violently threatened and verbally sexually abused your children? And did he make disgusting boasts about sick sex sessions involving you, your 4-year-old daughter and claim he`d taken photographs?" I said ask her that and you can write whatever you want about me without any fear of `comebacks` or lawsuits for libel. If my X denies it she is `blatantly lying` to you as she knows his sick and vile behaviour is known to the police, social services and cafcas. And more imporantly it is known to her. I added "before she answers you must inform her that you will be talking to Basildon Police and reading Social Service and Cafcass documents. This was an important warning, if they failed to act they would knowingly be allowing her to libel me. As my X knows the Police, Social Services and Cafcass are all aware that grimson made perverted boasts about `sex sessions` with my daughter involving himself, JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and photographs. And to prove I was telling the truth I offered to provide all the legal documents. Documents that have been seen by 2 national newspapers, 2 MPs and that have been used as evidence at The High Court when I appeared in front of Lord Justice Munby. It was his Lordship that lifted all `reporting restrictions` about my case - a fact that my ex-wife had `forgotten` to mention to the newspaper. Likewise it slipped her memory to inform the newspaper that she admitted everything about the sick behaviour of her perverted lover to Essex social worker peter brown - now would I risk naming mr brown if I was lying? At Ely House PORNE Star JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON confessed to mr brown that her boyfriend did `violently threaten and verbally sexually abuse her children`. She admitted she knew all along that Sam and Adam had been telling the truth. Taylor also `forgot` to tell the newspaper that grimson was a former pimp with a 15-year history of abusing, threatening and intimidating women and children. (information I obtained from his relative) She also forgot to mention his mental condition and that he refused to take a Lie Detector Test. So as I said to the newspaper "you write whatever you want about me - please do - I have nothing to hide - I want every single fact of my story in the public domain - it is what I`ve always wanted" That is why wrote The Punk Poet. I would love nothing more then for her to libel me in the national press - it would be a dream come true and great publicity for my book. But as long as the newspaper starts the interview with the question I have demanded - I will not demand a `right of reply` or sue them for libel - but I will sue the bollocks off julie taylor johnson for slander. So dont just `watch this space` look out for what is said in the papers.

Revenge Is A Dish Best Served Cold

As Johnny Rotten once sung "Problems, problems, problems". What now I can you hear you thinking?
Well Sam has just finished reading The Punk Poet and now knows that his former mum is not only a serial adulterer who put `sex romps with strangers` before her family, but is also a former stripper and porn star.
His reaction "I knew she was a slag but to be honest this has shocked me". This is an important incident to put on-the-record as throughout the Divorce Hearing julie blatantly lied to the court that Sam and Adam had read The Punk Poet.
I swore on oath that they hadnt but as usual I was called a "liar". The fact is I decided both boys were too young to read such an adult account of my life story.
But now Sam is almost 19 so I let him decide if he wanted to read about his dad`s past as a football star, teenage tearaway and punk poet.
And of course if he read the `good & bad` about me he had to read the `nice & naughty` stuff about his ex-mum.
My life story is not just a 100% factual account about me it`s also the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth about my marraige and the `life and times` of julie johnson.
And this is part of the `problem`. Sam is not that bothered about his mates reading the book coz as he said "They all know she`s a f*****g slag".
It`s true as they all know about ian flemming, tibbs jnr and her perverted pimp boyfriend richard grimson (now in Wisbech and formerly of 40 Hyde Road Wickford) but he is `worried` about them seeing her in porn movies like Basildon Babe saying "my mates will take the right mick out of me".
He also knows now that his former mum has a `past` and that when I first met her she was having an `affair` with a married man called Derek.
This led to her `fighting/clashing` in the street with the wife and being named in the Divorce. So as I said to Sam "Sorry mate but she does have a history of adultery with married men" reminding him both grimson and flemming were married when she was `cheating` with them.
Sam is also concerned about Adam and his mates getting their hands on a copy of the dvd. I have promised Sam that her porn movie Julie Taylor Johnson/The Best of Basildon Babe will only be on sale in Europe.
But I can understand his `worries`. I can see where he`s coming from as I found showing clips to 2 old mates who knew julie and a new `friend` who sees her on a daily basis `pretty awkward`.
To be honest I felt as if I was `betraying her`.
It was also embarrassing when the coppers laid out a few of her porno pictures in front of me & my old mate Ian Ashby and said "Do you recognise this women?"
I tried to make a joke of it by replying "Well yes I was married to her for 15 years". But it was still awkward having to look at her with legs spread apart and wearing nothing but black stockings in front of three other blokes. I thought to myself "how many other cops in the station have seen these?"
Quite a few I would guess.
Outside Basildon Police Station Ian (my legal adviser) joked "All them times I met your julie at parties and weddings I never imagined I`d see her looking like that".
Part of me was `sort of sad` but I thought "f*** it there only pictures, the pervert grimson, flemming, tibbs, hymas and the rest have all seen her naked in the flesh". So I soon stopped feeling `sad or guilty`.
But back to my `problem` - Adam leaves school in June and the plan was to `publish and be damned` - but now I`m worrying in case copies of the dvd do end up in Wickford or Basildon.
I have been assured that Basildon Babe starring julie taylor johnson will not be available in the UK and as far as I know that is the truth.
But another problem.
One of julie`s `fans` from her pub stripping days has contacted me & claims to have seen clips of her in porno movies and keeps contacting me for a copy of BASILDON BABE.
His name is Nick and his number is 07969 258113 - at first I thought this was a form of `entrapment` so I gave his details & copies of emails to Social Services.
But he could be `kosher` as he gave me his home address in East London and said he used to watch her stripping in various East End pubs.
He described her perfectly and even knew she was from Walthamstow and what car she drove in 1988.
I still aint sure if he`s genuine or if I`m being `set-up` by her people like `the wiggins` or paul wellings.
My money is on paul `pj` wellings as he hungout in strip pubs throughout the 80s and in 2006 begged me for copies of julie`s porno pictures.
Still as a precaution I covered myself by giving the timed & dated emails from this Nick Lightbown character to peter brown.

The Last Word

I`m living proof that if you fight hard enough you can beat the system but us mere mortals stand no chance against the big fella in the sky.
When he decides your "time is up" its up.

I spent yesterday at Basildon Hospital having various tests and at long last my medical problem was finally diagnosed.

After a decade of being poked and probed and getting nowhere it was confirmed that I have `liver damage`.
The Doctor said "Mr Johnson you must stop smoking and drinking with immediate effect" adding "we have found chronic damage to your liver"

At this point I stopped listening and felt sick. He added something like "the tests should be around 20 but yours is 42". I didnt have a clue what result he was on about and after that everything went hazy.

When I said "but I aint never smoked in my life and stopped being a heavy drinker about 18 years ago" it was obvious he didnt believe me by the look onhis face.

I said "are you sure it aint down to me drinking too much coffee or red bull?" and he replied "definetely not".

He put me on medication called Diclofenac and I gotta go back in 2 weeks for a scan.

As soon as I got home I Googled liver disease, my symptons and Diclofenac. At best I might have scirosis of the liver and worse case scenario is cancer.

It got me thinking about my funeral and last requests.

I want my own song "If Looks Could Kill" played in church but dont want a single soul at my funeral - that includes Sam and Adam as I dont want there last memory of me to be as a rotting corpse in a wooden box.
I want them to remember me telling jokes and making them laugh.

I will leave them all I have and also a long list of last requests.

I will ask them to honour my memory by carrying out my last wishes.

I want them to promise me on my death bed that they will never ever talk to `her` (jtj), the taylor family, sally prevost, paul wellings or any of the Welsh mob.

And that they will never forgive the `lying scum` that is julie taylor johnson for what she did to them or me.

I am 100% confident that both boys will never forgive or forget her various boasts outside the gates of Hilltop School.

When I was sent to prison she was overheard saying "I did it I got him locked up" adding "I`ll be having a good drink tonight"

And boasting "The best thing I ever did was having an affair - I lost Sam and Adam - but I got the house"

But those comments getting back to us wasnt just down to her boasting within earshot of other mums at the school gates.

She also sent both boys a number of `spiteful` emails which are now in the hands of Social Services.

Outside Hilltop she `celebrated` when I was sent to prison, the boys put into care and then made `homeless`.

When she heard Sam and Adam were living in a hostel she laughed sneering "Good" and when they were moved to a rundown housing estate she found it hilarious.

She sent vile emails calling them "Chavs".

But she hadnt done her `homework` as both boys dont live in "Alcatraz" - they live on the edge of the new part of the estate.

So once again she acted with hate in her heart and hadnt got her facts right.


If they really want to honour my memory they will never talk to the evil slag who cheated on the three of us with a perverted pimp, a supermarket worker, a copper and then kept my dad`s death from us.

A women who took my daughter, stole my money and took there home.

I now my boys will never forgive or forget the boast she has made to various people.
She has bragged:
"Having an affair with was the best thing I ever did - it lost me Sam and Adam - but sleeping with richard got me a house"

Even as death looms I can still take a positive from a negative - I might be dying but I will go to my grave knowing that both boys will never betray me.

They will always be loyal to my memory.

Alive and ill I have never asked SAM and ADAM to disown taylor or her low-life family, they decided to do so because of her disgusting behaviour and adultery with grimson, flemming and tibbs junior but when I`m dead I know the taylor family will try to get at them.

For 20 years they hated me alive and in death they will set out to destroy my good name and smear my character.

This is why I have written a "wish list" and a number of instructions for Sam and Adam plus various timed and dated letters for PRINCESS.

I know both boys will never betray my memory and will always remain loyal to the dad who "loved them to bits.

They must never forgive or forget what the selfish and spiteful taylor did to them or me - the serial adultery, the lies to the police that got them put into `care` and there `devoted dad` sent to prison, stealing my money and their home plus 101 other "crimes" that I will repeat in my last letter.

And worst of all siding with her perverted boyfriend when he violently threatened and verbally sexually abused them.

I am 100% confident that SAM and ADAM will carry out my wishes and never betray my memory because they will always love me as much as I loved them.

There will be NO "step-dads" or various "uncles" taking my place or filling my shoes.

Why have I written this list?

It goes without saying why taylor tops the list - but "for the record".

1. Eight months of adultery - October 2004 to June 2005.

2. The `sexual disease` - December 2004 to January 2005.

3. Stopping me from seeing my daughter June 2005 to March 2011

4. Allowing grimson her perverted pimp boyfriend to violently threaten and verbally sexually abuse my children - June 2005 to March 2007.

5. Lying to the police and Social Services to get me put in prison and the boys into care.

How about that for starters?

Now for the taylors.

My x mother-in-law and former grandmother to my kids provided 6 months of false alibis about shopping trips to Basildon when jtj was out and about with grimson.
She lied that her daughter was visiting Medoc Close when she was really at 40 Hyde Way.

Mr taylor who when I told him that grimson was violently threatening and verbally sexualy abusing his former grandchildren rather then protect them or go to the police - he complained to the courts and my solicitor that I was "harrassing" him.

I have timed and dated copies of my letters to him alerting him to the vile and disgusting behaviour of his daughters `lover` and he did nothing.

That is nothing apart from accusing me of "harassment" and if anyone doubts any of the above I have obtained a handwritten timed and dated letter he signed and sent to my solicitor. The original will appear in the book.

And now for the `welsh mob`. How did sharon williams - sister of jtj react when she was informed by me that her former nephews and niece were being violently threatened and verbally sexually abused by grimson?

Did she report the former pimp to the police?

No.

She sent a handwritten letter to my solicitor acussing me of "harrasment".

I have obtained a copy of her letter which will also appear in The Punk Poet.

It is fortunate that both letters are handwritten as they can not deny writing them. And as I have timed and dated copies of the letters I sent them they can never claim that they were unaware of the violent threats or the verbal sexual abuse.

Vile and disgusting behaviour carried out by grimson and `covered-up` by julie taylor johson.

The fact is that every one of the taylor family knew that grimson boasted of sick and perverted sex sessions involving both my 5-year-old daughter and ex-wife.

As did sally prevost who also did nothing to protect my children - but who was happy to give jtj alibis when she started her affair with grimson.

And if there are still any doubters out there the book will also include quotes lifted direct from court statements which confirm:
"Both boys suffered as a result of a campaign of terror and harrasment by richard grimson"

These will not be my `words` or my opinion but quotes from Judgements, Social Services statements, Cafcass reports, legal documents and police records.

And as you know all these people `hated me` and until recently were `taken in` by the lies of julie taylor johnson.

But even they in 2006, 2007 and 2008 criticised her for doing nothing about the vile and disgusting behaviour of her peverted boyfriend richard grimson.

QUOTES to follow asap...

Legal Documents Social Services Statements & Medical Records

"The truth the whole truth and nothing but the Gospel truth 2005 to 2011" but dont just take my word for it as this Chapter will include extracts from all the original documents that were put before the "Mickey Mouse" courts of Southend, Chelmsford, Colchester, Romford and Basildon plus the `kosher` High Court in London.
I am legally allowed to do this because Lord Justice Mumby lifted all reporting restrictions related to my case.
On this blog version I will be `lifting` quotes from Social Services & Cafcass documents and comments from various Judgements.
But in the book I will be using photo-copies of the original documents.
The reader will be able to see how Social Services, Cafcass and even the judge all condemned the behaviour of perverted pimp richard grimson and see how the judge criticised julie taylor johnson for refusing to deal with the fact that her boyfriend had violently threatened and verbally sexually abused our three children.
Taylor still tells her family and friends she had no affairs and that Adam never caught her with flemming or half-naked and "in the act" with grimson.
And she lies about the verbal sexual abuse and violent threats her perverted boyfriend inflicted on her children.
But I am about to publish the comments of social workers and the words of the judge. And in doing so I will expose her as a blatant liar.