They Tried To Break Me

Who are my enemies and the cowardly bastards who tried to destroy me with their blatant lies? Top of the list is of course julie taylor johnson and I`ll return to her later. Next are her `partners in crime` the taylor family and Sally Griffin (formerly Prevost) who plotted against me for 15 years.

My ex-wife I discovered after we married was a former pub stripper with a history of dating married men and like her BNP supporting father had a `problem` with black people.
Coming as I did from a showbiz background where I mixed with people from all races I found it this extremely difficult to deal with.

I dealt with having a racist father-in-law by having as little contact with him as possible. Not once in 15 years did we go to the pub or socialise.

His hatred of black people was vile but he feelings towards Jewish people was evil. He praised Hitler and when drunk would say "if it was up to me I`d have every Jew in Golders Green rounded up and put in concentration camps".

I found this offensive on both a moral and personal level as unbeknown to him I`d had Jewish girlfriends and almost had a half-Jewish child.

This piece of scum hated me from day one and in fact the first time Julie took me home he sneered "at least he aint black".

I knew at that moment that we would never get on.

Over the years I tried to understand his hatred of black people. There were many clues but I dont think I ever discovered the real reason.

I did discover that around 30 years ago his sister married a black bloke and that he disowned her.

I also found out from Julie that throughout her teenage years she was `hassled` and `pestered` by black boys because she was blonde and the best-looking girl at school.
She went to McEntee a inner city school in Walthamstow and told me how the black boys all fancied her and would never leave her alone.

Julie claims she was forced to slow dance with black boys at school discos because she was scared of being beaten-up.

She also claimed she was always being touched on the school bus home and that she was once seperated from her friends at Wanstead Fair and molested by a gang of black boys.

Maybe this explains - but in no way condones the nazi views of her Father. She told me that once when a black boy knocked at her front door that her dad went "mad".

And if all the above is true what has this got to do with Jewish people or Gays? I mention homosexuals because Mr Tony Taylor hated what he called "Fucking queers" and believed they should all be put up against a wall and shot.

I have always been a `live and let live liberal` so these ravings of a nazi nutter meant we were never close.

Another person who hated me marrying Julie was her best friend Sally Griffin (Prevost) who tried to split us up from day one.

The ginger slag waited 15 years to get revenge for me marrying her best mate. She did it by giving Julie alibis so she could cheat with her pervert boyfriend richard grimson.
For six months Prevost/Griffin lied that Julie was with her in Braintree when she was really having sex sessions with the perverted former pimp.

Ginger Griffin along with Mr & Mrs Taylor played a major role in my children losing their family - a role that my children are aware of.

Before I met my ex-wife I was colour blind when it came to race. My best friend at school was black and I`d also had black and Jewish girlfriends.

I still remember a incident just after I`d met Julie. We were walking through Walthamstow Market and I spotted an old friend called Patsy Johnson.

She was Head Of Press at Arista Records and looked after people like Meatloaf and Whitney Houston - who she introduced me to in around 1985/86.

I shouted out "Patsy" and I remember we kissed and cuddled in the middle of the Market.

We had a chat about old times and throughout Julie said nothing - after we said "Goodbye" Julie went into one. She called me all the names under the sun - and wouldnt talk to me for hours.

Have you guessed Patsy was black - she looked like Diane out of Eastenders but with lovely long dreadlocks.

I couldn`t get my head around Julie`s racist reaction - I should of split with her then - but because she was so good-looking and I fancied her like mad I decided to overlook this outburst.

I hoped it would be a one-off. But sadly it wasn`t - as about a month later we were in a shop in Southend - I think it was either River Island or Topshop - and I bumped into my old mate Vere - who like Patsy was black and had dreadlocks like Bob Marley.

Again Julie could only just about bring herself to say "Hello" to him and when we said "Goodbye" she again let rip at me with a torrent of abuse and spent the rest of the day sulking.

I should of ended our relationship there & then but I was in love - and hoped it wouldnt happen again.

But the truth is despite these 2 outbursts I didnt/dont consider Julie to be a racist - she certainly isnt a nazi like her parents.

Julie like me really`loved` black music so it just added to my confusion about Julie and black people.

I remember meeting a black bloke who was going out with one of her friends - and to be honest I didnt like him - but it werent because he was black it was because he was a copper.

His name I think was Denzil - from memory he looked a bit like the Only Fools And Horses character - but he was thicker then Trigger.

I think Julie said he used to be a bus driver but got the sack because he kept forgetting the route and then failed the test to be a tube train driver - but would you believe passed the entry exam to join the police.

That says it all about the police dont it?

Whereas I dont think Julie was influenced by her father to be a Nazi - she was influenced by his hatred of gay people.

Julie was a massive Wham fan - loved George Michael - but when he came out the closest she hated him.

She refused to come with me to see David Bowie - even though he was my hero - because her dad had brought her up to believe he was to quote Mr Taylor "a poof".