The Punk Poet / Introduction

The Punk Poet

Introduction:

I grew up reading about the underworld exploits of Reg and Ronnie Kray, the prison escapes of John McVicar and the adventures of The Great Train Robbers.
Hero-worshipping The Twins and watching great British gangster films like Get Carter, Villian and Performance.
Fact or fiction, it didnt bother me, I also liked Robin Hood, Jesse James, Dick Turpin and The Lavender Hill Mob.
Maybe because of my Irish background I have always been attracted to rebels.
I`ve always supported the underdog. The Jews in Nazi Germany. the Palestinians in Israel, the blacks in apartheid South Africa and the white working class outnumbered by asylum seekers on Inner City council estates.
If you`re being picked on I`m on your side.

I`m not a follower of leaders, politically correct, a loony leftie or a right-wing bigot. My view of the world is my vision.
It might not make sense and I accept that I am a mass of contradictions - but at the same time I`m loyal and honest.

I am at heart a working class liberal with middle class manners who hates the upper class and all it stands for.
I dont like the Royal Family, the Royal Opera or the British legal system. I`m not a political patriot - but I am a proper one.
I dont like people attacking my country or praising their own. I truly believe that nationality is just an accident of birth and where you are born does not make you superior or inferior to others.
To me Tony Blair and Anjem Choudary are both a pair of wankers. One a war criminal the other a traitor.
I`d bang `em both up in Bellmarsh with Gordon Brown, Sir Cliff Richard and Lord Mandelson.


I am an individual and not a member of any tribe. I am a outsider with no interest in borders, religion or party politics.
If you`re in trouble I`ll help if I can - but the only people I truly care for are my friends and family.
I believe in love over hate and loyalty before betrayal. And standing-up for what you believe even if the rest of the world thinks you are wrong.
My motto is "Never forgive and never forget" and by those few words I want to be judged.

Wow.
That was a bit of a rant werent it? But that`s me, that is my moral code. Those are my personal beliefs.

I`m hoping that insight into my character will help you to understand why I had to slay an adulterer, a pimp and a child abuser.

Words are my bullets.

The truth is before I discovered Punk Rock I wanted to be a professional footballer or a gangster.
And before I met my wife I wanted to be a lifelong bachelor.

I gave up drink and drugs when I met my ex-wife and maybe swapped one addiction for another.
My feelings for her replaced my `lust for life. The party animal became extinct when I fell in love.

I didnt miss the booze but because of my personality I cant say the same about the drugs. I am probably wrong but I dont believe they did me any harm. I loved the buzz of speed and the kick of Charlie.
I love fast drugs - yet I hate cannabis with a passion and would be heartbroken if any of my children tried drugs.
See more contradictions or am I sounding just like a typical parent?

I spent 15 years "burning the candle" at both ends and couldnt go a day without a line of speed or snort of coke - but the irony is drugs didnt destroy me - I was destroyed by the women I loved.

I was betrayed by the "love of my life" and so hurt that one Christmas Eve I wrote a suicide note.
Not a lot of people know this but `Heartbreak Hotel` by Elvis Presley started out as a sucide letter.
Let`s hope this book sells half as many copies as that Rock and Roll classic.

It wasnt a cry for help because I was on my own and wouldnt of been found for days. But the truth is I couldnt do it - I couldnt desert my children.

I lined up all the tablets, I wrote all my "Goodbye" letters, but I couldnt stop thinking about my children.
And I knew if I went through with it I would be giving my ex-wife, her boyfriend and her parents the best christmas present they had ever had.

For three years the four of them had preyed for my death and I knew that by `taking my own life` I would be playing into their hands.
My stubborn streak and refusal to give them what they wanted more than anything on earth pulled me back from the brink and inspired me to write this book.

If I had committed sucide and taken the cowards way out imagine all the lies they would of told my children about me?
My ex-wife and her family would have crucified me. Her parents hated me alive but would of loved me dead.
But the truth is I am no quitter. I am so much stronger than they think and because of the love I have for my children I will be around for a very long time.

Sorry to dissapoint you Julie, but I am going nowhere babe, you wont be getting rid of me that easy.
I will be attending the weddings of ALL my children and look forward to becoming a `groovy grandfather`.
My ex-wife and her parents would love to dance on my grave but I am determined to live at least one day longer than the three of them.

Before I start my story I will try and explain my personality so you can see what kind of person I really am.
My all-time heroes are David Bowie and Rod Stewart. I loved Rod`s swagger, haircut, voice and taste in women.
And I worshipped Ziggy Stardust. I copied everything from the red spikey hair to the fast drugs.

All my life I`ve been attracted to rebels of all varieties from every walk of life. George Best, Hurricane Higgins, Steve Ovett, Johnny Rotten.
Even Maggie Thatcher - let me explain that one. I didnt like her when she was in power but I felt for her when all those chinless wonders and cowards stabbed her in the back.
Now what would a Harley Street shrink make of that?

What you are about to read started out as a suicide note on Christmas Eve 2007 and ended as a `fresh beginning` on New Years Day.
Over a manic ten-day period my "Goodbye Cruel World" letter was transformed into this book.

I cant explain my road to Damascus moment, I can only guess that on Christmas Eve when most people had a visit from Santa I had a visit from God. Some kind of divine intervention persuaded me to fight on.
I cried myself to sleep but woke up Christmas morning with a smile on my face. Well that`s not strictly true, I wasnt smiling but I was no longer suicidol.

My story will tell how I went from being a young football star to teenage tearway and how a chance meeting with music legend Garry Bushell transformed me into a punk poet and performer.

I will reveal all about my 15-year-marraige to the woman I considered the best-looking woman in the world, my best friend and soul mate.
And I know that some militant feminists and Julie herself will be `very angry` at me for revealing her `porno past` so please let me explain.

I am not doing it for revenge or because she had 3 affairs. I am revealing all about her 12 years of porn movies because she allowed her perverted pimp boyfriend richard grimson to carry out a campain of terror against my children - which included violence and verbal sexual abuse.

I am revealing that I have hours and hours of video showing Julie stripping, performing various sex acts and pleasuring herself because she has for 5 years stopped me from seeing my daughter.

The full content of her movie performances and the `stunts` she has pulled to stop me from seeing my daughter will appear throughout The Punk Poet.

I am already thinking positive and for when my novel becames a movie I have assembled a cast list.

Garry Johnson played by Ray Winstone
The young GJ by Danny Dyer
Julie Taylor Johnson by Patsy Kensit
In case The Punk Poet becomes a movie I have put together my perfect cast.

The young Julie Johnson by Charlotte from The Inbetweeners
The cougar Julie Taylor Johnson and Shotgate Slut Denise Van Outen.
The pervert richard grimson - Shrek would be `perfect casting` but it would have to be Minty from Eastenders.

Leading characters would be played by Amanda Holdern, Bradley Walsh, George Cole and Dave Courtney

David Baddiel as my barrister.
Susan Boyle as her barrister.
Clive Anderson as the the judge.
Principal Skinner the social worker Peter Brown (or a lookalike)
Les Dawson in drag as my ex-mother-in-law (or a lookalike)
Hayley from Corrie as her solicitor
Warren Mitchell (Alf Garnet) as my former father-in-law
Liz McDonald from Corrie as Sally Prevost/Griffin...but only because Lassie is dead.