Life After Adultery

Chapter Six

I would like to put-on-record that before she started sleeping around and left in June 2005, Julie was, or at least I thought she was the nicest and most `loyal  and lovliest` person I had ever met in my life.

She was the perfect wife.
A wonderful loving mum during the day and at night a dirty little whore in the bedroom who was always up for everything.
I had the best of both worlds. What more could a man want?
But now I fear it was all an `act` and perhaps I never really knew the woman I was married to for 15 years.

In the past 4 years JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON since becoming a `sex slave` for perverted pimp Richard Grimson she has had a complete personality makeover.
Dressing like a cheap tart, a clone of her new `scummy friends` and choosing to believe the lies of her boyfriend rather then the truth of her children.

With me JULIE willingly and happily made porn movies like BASILDON BABE and SHOTGATE SLUT over a 12-year period...but her perverted boyfriend...a former pimp...who made her pregnant and gave her a STD boasts: "I`ve got her working as a Escort Girl"...adding "I even drive her to the punters houses in Romford".

My sons and me will never forgive her for linking up with a former pimp and a verbal child abuser.

She wont be bothered or lose any sleep by my refusal of forgiveness - but she`ll have a lifetime of regrets for choosing to put her `personal lust` for Grimson before the feelings of her own children.

Julie wont believe me, but the truth is, I would never of gone public about her `porn films` if my children had not suffered 18 months of violent threats and verbal sexual abuse.
I was angry - because more then anything else I am a Father.

The pain of her betrayal was nothing compared to the hurt I felt for the suffering of my innocent children.
It is the duty of every dad to protect his children from low-life scum and child abusers like Richard Grimson.

The last time I spoke to Julie was in the Somerfields car park at Wickford. I told her about the violent threats and verbal sexual abuse suffered by our children at the hands of her boyfriend richard grimson.
She just smirked.

And like her parents and sister did nothing. I dont think it even crossed her mind to report him to the police.

The last time my sons spoke to their former mum was a few weeks later. She turned up unannounced and uninvited at 22 Bridge Road.
It was almost 10pm and SKY football had just ended.

There was a knock at the door and to my amazement Julie was standing there. I dont know if I was more shocked by seeing her or her appearance.

For the only time since we first met she was not immaculate, wearing make-up or looking stunning.
She was dishevelled, scruffy and looked like she needed a bath. Her usually straight her was uncombed and almost curly - and after she my children commented on her rough appearance.

I dont know why I said "hello" in a friendly manner or asked her in. I think I was in a state of shock.

Both boys told her about the sick and disgusting behaviour of her boyfriend. They looked her in the eye and told her to her face...

And her reaction?
At first she laughed and then snarled:
"Richard said it never happened and I believe him" adding "you are lying little shits". She sided with her perverted boyfriend against her own flesh and blood.

This incident happened in March 2006 and is the last time she was in the same room as her children.
who have not seen or spoken to her since and never will.

She left shouting "I`m moving to Wales and you will never see me again". And before she sped off in her Puma sports car - the motor she bought with grimson - I had to restrain both boys from smashing it up.

Now that incident together with the sick and disgusting behaviour of grimson explains why both boys decided of their own accord to disown her.

Added to the fact that a family member caught her `in the act` and in her underwear with grimson the day before she left - and the fact - confirmed by social services - that she assaulted another relative minutes before walking out - prove both boys have genuine reasons for refusing all contact with Julie.

But until recent months the SS and the corrupt courts refused to treat my sons as human beings with feelings.

Back in 2006 they all agreed with Julie and believed that `child abuse` was no big deal so I ended up in Bellmarsh Prison.

My ex-wife was under the influence of a person I personally compared to Ian Huntley, Myra Hyndley and Ian Brady.
And my daughter was under the same roof as this pervert.

But at the time nobody else was concerned about the safety of my children (three years on and I have recieved both verbal and written apologies - all my concerns vindicated) - but at the time I was hitting my head against a brick wall.

I got no support from Julie, her parents, the courts, the police, Social Services. And worse my children got no help, support or protection.

Nodody cared that Grimson had sick `sexual fantasies` about a 5-year-old girl and bragged about them to JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and his common-law wife Emma.
What truly puzzles me is the behaviour of my ex-wife as it has never been explained in court or in her various statements.

Now if she was a `woman scorned` I could just about get my head around it - but it was her who had the extra-maritial affairs.

And it was her perverted boyfriend who carried out a `campaign of terror` against our children.

So why has she stopped me from seeing my daughter?

We were together more than 15 years so she knew my character - and knows I would be a great dad to a little girl.

I aint posh - but I love the theatre and all things showbiz. I would of taken her to pantos, the pictures, concerts and blagged tickets to things like Dancing On Ice or The X factor.

Julie knows this so why does she not allow contac?

I would of taken her to dance classes, acting lessons and things like TV commercial auditions and Julie knows this.

And if my little girl had been a tom boy I would of been just as supportive about her playing netball, football or athletics. I would have been a `hands on` dad encouraging her in everything.

So why does Julie stop me seeing her? She hasnt given me a single reason but a famous Agony Aunt has given me a explanation.

She believes that because I was/am so close to my sons that my ex-wife `feared` me having a special relationship with my daughter.

And this could also of been why she broke-up the family.

I told the Agony Aunt just like I told a Counsellor: "Before my wife left I already had a special relationship with my daughter  - she was only 4 but was already a `daddy`s girl`.

I couldnt leave the house or go to the shops without her wanting to come with me. She sat on my lap watching TV and loved me picking her up from Play School"

I didnt realise at the time that this `upset` Julie. I told the Counsellor and the Agony Aunt how on Thursday
and Sunday nights she would sleep in my bed and fall asleep as I told her stories.

Her mum worked nights and my daughter had a routine that she loved.

As her mum drove off she would jump on my lap to watch The Simpsons and would love jumping into my bed for stories.

It would always be `one more dad` and I would always finish with the one I made up about `the Big Red Bus full of animals that landed on the moon`.
She would get so excited and laugh so loud that her brothers would tell us to be quite"

The Agony Aunt and Counsellor both say Julie would of had affairs and left even if I hadnt had `stress related bedroom problems` because she was scared of `losing` her hold over over my daughter and was fearful she was becoming more and more of a daddy`s girl.

I can see that now and it all makes sense. They both told me "Julie already felt she had grown apart from my sons as they got more into football and `boys things` and was scared of your daughter becoming dependent on you`.

They are the experts - not that I agree with counselling - I reckon most is a `load of tosh` - but I can see where they are coming from.

Julie knew I was a very loving, liberal, touchy-feely, hands-on sort of dad. And one of the nicest things she ever said to me proves that.
She said:
"If you come in one night and I said the kids want a donkey in the garden - you wouldnt blink and would just say `yes` "

And that is true.
Likewise she was also `eccentric/understanding` - how many wives/mums would allow her husband and kids to put up a full sized snooker table in the lounge and put up with us all having to crawl under it to get to the door?

Well Julie did for months. And it`s things like that (and there are many more ) that make her `support` for a child abuser so hard to understand.

How/why does a loving mother betray her children to be with a fat ugly borderline paedophile?

And she must know that separating me from my daughter would make me ill. She knew I would suffer on a daily basis.
So why did she do it?

She hoped it would destroy me and prayed it would kill me. She phoned once and we put her call on loudspeaker and the boys heard their former mum and ex-grannie (mrs taylor) screaming "we want you dead - we wish you was dead".

The fact is she wasnt `a women scorned` - she was a serial adulterer - so why is she `punishing` me let alone a `innocent girl` by preventing her from seeing her dad or brothers?

One day she will have to answer that question as time does not stand still. My daughter isnt Four anymore she is 9 and when she is a teenager she will demand answers and want to be told the truth.

And she will hear it - the boys will make sure of that.

It is now 2009 and every day we get closer to the truth as bit by bit more evidence is hander over and little by little The Local Authority admit they got it wrong - but in 2005 and 2006 it was me against the world.

Back then the social worker said: "You will never win. you will never beat the system"

My own barrister even said "The court isnt interested in the truth its who the judge likes the look of"

The judge refused to accept my evidence and the statements of my young relatatives - they all conspired with my ex-wife to cover-up `child abuse.

But that was then and this is now. The goal-posts were moved and we started to play on a level playing field.
And thanx to Justice Mumby the truth is out in the open - and no more can the corruption be swept under the carpet or hid behind closed doors.

But in 2006 and because I refused to remain silent or allow it to be `swept under the carpet` I was branded as `mad, bad and dangerous` and banged up in Bellmarsh.

Julie became the Eva Braun of Wickford and Grimson was her Fuhrer. Since walking out in June 2005 she has spent all her time and energy smearing my character.
And always behind closed doors.

My friends have heard her at the school gates bragging "I did it I got him locked up - I convinced them he`s mad".
She even threw a party to celebrate and her father was heard boasting in the local British Legion.

It did her no favours as it all got back to my sons.

Even now I dont think her friends, family or work colleagues know the truth. She has used the secrecy of the family courts to keep her adultery and the sick behaviour of her boyfriend a secret.

But unluckily for her and fortunately for me two proper judges (Lords of the Realm) at the High Court lifted all reporting restrictions.

For 4 years she has stopped me from seeing my daughter and seperated brothers from sister.

In the past 48 months I have seen my daughter for a grand total of 250 minutes and always under the strict supervision of Cafcass security guards or Gestapo style Social Workers.
I was convinced that one day they would make me wear a concentration camp style uniform and brand me with a number.
They treated me like a Jew in 1930s Germany or a black in apartheid South Africa.

For 4 years the authorities fired her bullets - but `thank god` that has all ended. The Authorities are no longer her hired assassins.

And what Julie forgot - her big mistake apart from `dumping` her sons to be with a child abuser was that `time doesnt stand still`.

I am convinced that her mind was scrambled. She was infatuated with grimson, being urged to lie by her solicitors and enjoying being the `star attraction` she forget that in future there would be a `day of judgement`.

And in the summer of 2011 she really will be the "star attraction" when Basildon Babe - the best bits from her porn movies is released.
The only reason I am holding back is because I dont want my youngest son teased at school - but the day he hangs up his blazer it will be on sale.

Julie was so happy at being the centre of attention she forgot that when my daughter is older she will ask her `why dont I see my dad or my brothers?`.
And when she is 16 she will ask me the same questions.

That is when with the help of my `Letters To My Daughter` the personal accounts of both boys and the legal statements and documents from 2005 to 2009 that my daughter will know the truth.

She will know all about her mother having affairs, cheating with grimson and the violent and verbal sexual abuse suffered by her brothers.

PRINCESS will be told how the three of us with the support of her legal team were stopped frm visiting her in hospital and having contact.

It will then be for my darling daughter to decide what she does with the information and how she reacts.
I have a `heart problem` and so might not be around when my daughter is Sixteen - but I have made certain she will still know the truth.

1. The boys will tell there sister everything for me.
2. I have given a signed copy of The Punk Poet to a friend.
3. I have copies of all my statements and documents hidden in a friend`s loft.
4. I have my `Letters To My Daughter`
5. My friends will give her the information
6. My eldest son has given a interview to the press
7. I have told my story to a legal advisor and a MP - so it is all documented, on-the-record and timed and dated.
8. Social Services now accept that her boyfriend grimson is a pervert.

So you see one day my daughter will know the truth about her mother.